Slogan: Live In The Present

As I go into the new year it occurs to me that I have been working on this blog in a haphazard way that doesn't really keep me interested. I know that I want to have music and I love to hear the sound of it on the harp. Somehow I need to make things right here. I need to figure out what it is that will make this a functional piece of memorabilia.

Since I got to the end of the class I was taking I have found that I'm tired. There are many things going on with the Spiritual Season of Christmas upon me. Some are good and the scales are balanced with the hard things that take a lot of effort to work thru. I am figuring out that things I do on my own go fairly well with no hitches. Now, things I plan with other people is a whole different story. We make plans and then they get changed, I think things will look like this and other people think it will be in a whole different way that just doesn't work for me. So, the next step is to get mad and blame me. Ya, for some reason when things go wrong its just my fault. I think that makes it all too easy for those who want things all their way and are looking to Blame someone.

I get tired, confused, and lazy in those times. I grab the remote and start looking for hours and hours of TV to fill the gap called the rest of my life. Getting lost in something that takes no energy is the only thing that I am up for. Over Christmas there were many hours spent with all the programs that gave me the comfort that the people I kmow were too busy to do.

On Christmas Day I did a few special things, had some food I wanted around, did not play any music ~ sadly, found a mini series (7 hours) and enjoyed most of the day with it. I tried to read but for the most part I was staying up too late at night and falling asleep in the pages in a very short period of time. I tried nothing that took me too far away from the house as it was so cold out that I couldn't keep warm and hated to even move around the house, and doing chores in the rooms that don't heat well was so bad my fingers lost feeling.

On January 2nd, 2011 I went to the store and bought a new journal to begin recording my year in. It felt better to have physical pen & paper in my hot little hand. Of course, my first chore was to create a set of goals for the year, those big tasks that will take an entire year to complete in tiny daily bits. I don't want to take on too many as I do have those little surprises that crop up and need some time also. I won't mention them all here in detail as this is getting pretty long as it is, but I'll come back with news as I go along. I was quite pleased to see that I would go to my harp when needing to take short breaks during study times, it was a good way to refresh my head and heart so I could resume studying. I'd like to do it again between other tasks now that class is finished. Working harder around here is the focus . . . maybe even clean the fridge =:()

So long for now ~ Meg