Slogan: To Challenge Myself



Hello Friends,

Well, I have passed my anniversay date of Lavor Day to summarize the past year of blogs and I am not very impressed with my progress. First, I had very few entries for the entire year, nowhere near one for each day, or even 5 days per week. If that is what putting a chllaenge out there to myself is like then I'd better do something different. I did have a very lumpy time starting around the long weekend, ending up with me doing 2 days and nights in the E R due to this asthmas attack from hell. I didn't do very well for a couple of days, but I'm back home doing complete bed rest and lots of heavy meds to get things going again; four days later I'm starting to feel like its making a difference in my condition. Well, that's all fine, but where is the dedication and determination it takes to keep going when things aren't going smoothly, life has lumps, you have to keep going, you have to work away at things. What happens if you decide that taking the dog for walks is too trouble and treat it like a stuffed animal? Oh, you know what happens, you have to replace your carpets and probly lots of things that have been chewed and destroyed as they are telling you how angry they are. so, why then do you take on an instrument that calls out to be loved and cared for as your dog does and yet it sits in the corner pleading for attention?

I haven't actually looked at the posts I entered, it seems like it was such a tiny amount and didn't really represent any ups & downs, highs & lows, working thru hardships, or reaching the achievements, no anguish or celebrating. It was really just an exercise in futility, nothing anyone would care to read and feel confident that they would get another installment, just leave the reader hanging isn't going to be good enough if you want to actually have a following. Why did you decide to take this activity on? Because I thot it would be a very good way to write article-style entries and discover how to write work that I might one day have a real audience. So, what happened? Well, it seems that I allow a lot of emotional issues to get in the way and I quit when I can't continue in the same mindset. I have this idea that I have to write in the voice of a novelist creaating fictional work, or worse, like technical papers.

That just isn't what these blogs are about; they are giving you the opportunity to write your own version of what you are doing, how you are going about it, and all the ups & downs that it has taken to get you to the point of final achievement. This is the story of your journey that it takes to get you learning how to be the best harpist that you possibly can be, the emotions it takes to get you to the level of excellence that you apire to; stop writing fiction and start digging deep and tell the truth.

Okay, guess I've been told. I will return tomorrow with the first installment of the new year, having the details of what I am working on at present. Maybe this will be a good exercise in which I can learn to "Be In The Present" I can see using that as my singular slogan for the year, not changing them each month. Stop worrying about asthetics and get the work done. Or next year, it will be 'get at it fool'. ha ha ha lol.

Well, this has certainly been fun,

Meg