Hye, I'm baaaaaaack.
I am beginning to see that I don't take life as a serious matter that needs my contribution in order to have any validity to it at all. I don't contribute.
Lent is coming in a couple of weeks and I have observed it over the years. It shows me the areas in which I have discipline and those in which I don't. Giving up things, like sugar and coffee have never been a problem for me. In fact after several years doing this to make me able to be more subserient to the Lord. But, I am thinking that I need to change my strategy to what am I willing to DO to get closer to the Lord? I have given up all my life, I have learned to live with less, lower, more pain to keep on going. Now, it could be time for me to start giving and doing to make my life more worthwhile for the Lord.
Music is one way that I can add to my life. I have been refusing to have music as part of my days; hence, I don't listen to it, sing any songs aloud, play music. I was shut down for many many years due to being married to a husband who only liked country music and nothing else got into the house. Living, as I do, in ways that will keep me in the same place that he left me, so I don't change in ways that he doesn't approve of, and won't take me back, I still refuse to have anything to do with music.
If I do work on music during Lent, for the Lord, as I try to do all my things at this time, it could be a break thru to make other changes. I am stubborn and psychologically I can work myself in ways that keep me stalling out.
Gotta go, coffee sale on my favorite beans.
Meg
