Slogan: Unfinished Projects


Hye Folks,

I know that I haven't been as faithful as I'd primised; there is no excuse, it seems like I have so much mail when I get on here lately that I don't have time to both blog and practice music.

I have been working on my usual pieces, Wisteria, Water's Wide, etc. Now I am going back into my older lapsed ones, Swan Lake ~ with both hands. That makes me happy. Its really one that I originally picked out to show Caroline and she put it in her music book and now I am the proud owner of a copy with my name in the 'version by 'title.


Sooo, Sun Mar 7th:
I didn't have good enough thinking to come back to this writing later last evening, so I finally just saved it and put it out of my mind till I could come back to it. I'm having a hard time getting started today, I know there are things to do, I have got a small list of errands to run this afternoon, but I'm stalling, dragging my feet and not interested in going out, I'd rather much rather stay in and do things that I can wear these really bad (read: ugly) clothes for. Guess that's how I know that I have to go and dress properly, go do something and come back to approach the harp in a better state after errands.

Catch ya later,

Meg

Slogan: Unfinished Projects . . . .


Hye Friends,

So, here we are at the beginning of the month of March and I am not making any entries on my progress. It looks like I am not making any progress. Well, that's not entirely true. I am not able to get more than a few minutes into my playing time and then I get interrupted. I am beginning to realize that my new schedule of waiting till the afternoon to sit down with music is a bad time; seems like everyone else does the same thing.



My first instinct was to try to get into a routine, one that I held loosely and that I could add to, make changes to, remove things that are not working for me. Its sort of like math. That doesn't exactly speak to my heart, the place where all the creativity comes from. Its more like a math problem that needs solving, very undesirable way to do Right-Brain work.



So far I haven't stretched myself with the harp and ability to grow in this activity. I love my harp, little Daria, really I do, but it seems to be the easiest thing to let go of; all my life I have loved the sound, the way the harpist is while playing, the fact that there are no harsh tones (like heavy metal can do) and yet I push it away. Why? Guilt? Guilt over finally getting to own one after being told as a child - no you can't do that - so when there is any excuse to just push it away I do out of negative messages. Hence, unfinished projects, this gives me a new way to look at the fact that I am doing myself harm, even after all these years of being a grown person who has no one to answer to today. If I'm looking for permission, I'll wait a very long time, so I may as well decide that I have had a long life and done the best I could with it, and that it is good that I want to take on more activities that interest me. Essentially, God has given me this harp and the ability to play it, so who am I to tell God He is wrong?


To Do List of Music
* Wisteria
* Water's Wide (both hands)
* Greensleeves (right hand)
* Star of Countydown
* Happy Birthday
* Here Comes The Bride (just found it)

I know many of these sound like repeats, but have you actually read where I have even worked any of them? Have I recorded the results? No, so that means that I have not accomplished anything, and now is the time. Right now I have a theory that if I become more creative that I am going to be able to think about work in fresh ways. Hmm, I'll check back and let you know how it goes.

Thanks for listening,

Meg